Progress Not Perfection - X

My story starts with parents that were never proud of me, even when I was good student with good marks and I was doing everything they wanted. They are strict Catholics who cares about church, but never cared about feelings and emotions of their own kids. Just their "salvation". They never really supported me emotionally, so I decided I will do it myself. But even when I got 100 points from exam, it wasn't still enough. Nothing was never enough and I thought nothing will ever fill the hole that grew thanks to the demands of my parents. How could something be enough, when only thing they wanted from their kids was go to heaven. And I couldn't fulfill their wishes and just die in purity. I just wanted to be perfect and don't disappoint them. Be perfect daughter, have the perfect marks, be perfect Catholic and I didn't realise I was pushing myself so hard just because of the expectations from other people. I also wanted immediately the final result. Maybe it was just my OCD that was never a thing for my parents. I went to study at university and I happened to be on the edge of my powers before my final exams. Then I found ZOX through the Instagram and my first thought was "nothing will change just with a bracelet". But I ordered one anyway and I kept looking at the message every day while I was studying for my final exams. That voice inside my head telling me I will never be enough, and if I won't remember something my teachers are gonna hate me, slowly disappeared. This bracelet was reminding me every day "progress not perfection". So I focused on the progress and I was so happy about every small step I made. I was proud of myself and I didn't need to hear it from my parents anymore. I realised the goals in life, need time to be reached. I won't reach my goals over night. So I started slowly moving every day towards my goals until I reached them. Even when I thought this is just a bracelet with a few words on it, these words had huge power and helped me overcome maybe the hardest period in my life. Now I know I don't need teachers and my parents to like me, I need to slow down to my pace and don't rush myself so much in my life. I need to do stuff for myself not for others and find my confidence. I am finally leaving my parents house and I'm going to study at the university in different city. I hope new fresh start can heal the huge the traumas I have from this place, my family and primary from the religion. I won't let anyone to control me or my life anymore. I think ZOX gives people words that everyone should hear to start to believe in themselves and to realise that the obstacles in life aren't always that big how we think they are. Mistakes are the best teachers of our lifes. Perfection just doesn't exist and everyone should realise it. Cause trying to be perfect is one of the mistakes we shouldn't make after all.